Warning, mature themes

One of the scariest movies I`ve ever seen is "Candyman" and what makes it scary to me is that the Candyman can kill you anywhere no matter how many people are around you. Nobody can help you. Losing a baby to shoulder dystocia is just like that. Everybody was tested and everybody failed, nobody could save my son and lots of people tried. It looked to me like there were more than 30 people in the ER alone and none of them could help Alistair in time. This little boy I`m carrying now feels big like his brother and every day I feel more Ok with the choice (or lack thereof) to have him born surgically.