Sometimes I'll meet someone for the first time and they will see my 3 boys and say something like , "3 boys? I thought you had 4 for some reason." Its weird because if I just met them I haven' t told them about Alistair yet. They would have no way of knowing I do have another one, in heaven. Its like he makes his presence known in a subtle way, still.
On Saturday we went to a birthday party for a neighbor's little girl. There was a mama there with a 10 year old and 2 2year old twins. I asked her if she had other kids, she said no. I really felt like she had 2 other kids. When she first walked up to me I saw her as a mom to more kids, I pictured 5 kids, but I just brushed it off when she said she had 3. Then, later I was talking to my neighbor and she told me that the woman I had met at the party had lost a set of twins right before getting pregnant again with twins. I knew there were more kids, and I finally can see what others might see when they meet me.
I love things like this because it gives me hope that there is more than this life, that we don't just end when we die.
- I'm just a mom in the world. A crunchy Catholic mama of 6 trying to make sense of it all and stay positive. 5 boys here & 1 in heaven. One awesome man who I get to grow old with. I help new moms breastfeed. I`m happy. I don`t go to shows or dance clubs every night but I would if I could. Where`s the nanny? When I see her she`s SO fired! One of my boys is super sweet and sensitive, another one is a holy terror. I learn a ton from all of them daily. Like Nigella says, as any parent of small children knows,there comes a point in the day where you can`t go any further without a drink! I love cocktail hour. I`d like nothing more than to be with my family and some good friends surrounded by tropical plants drinking a margarita listening to the Eagles. I don`t care about trendy, I like that grungy 70`s vibe.